This is beautiful.
It is called "For This Child I Prayed." From 1 Samuel 1:27. "For this child I prayed; and the Lord hath given me my petition which I asked of him."
I was able to meet the artist, Elspeth Young, when we were still living in Provo, and she was just lovely. Very talented too, as you can tell.
Today I was feeling down and got on lds.org, the website for my church, on a whim. It was like I didn't know what I was doing but somehow I found my way to some articles written by members of the LDS community that described what it feels like for someone of faith to deal with not having children in family-oriented atmospheres. And it made me feel better. (It made me bawl my eyes out, but hey, I'll take what I can get). I especially loved this sentiment, which I have never been able to express so simply before: "There is always purpose in the Lord withholding blessings for a time."
No, things aren't necessarily better this week. In fact, we only got some more bad news (which I won't discuss, because frankly, I don't want to). But I have faith that things will be Okay. And the Lord is withholding blessings because He loves me. That is a pretty profound Love, if you think about it.
I know that one day I will be able to say "For this child I prayed; and the Lord hath given me my petition which I asked of Him." For now, other prayers are answered, and that is enough.
So true, Heather. I cry with you, too. My five miscarriages were very sad.
ReplyDeleteI've just read a couple of your latest blog pages and I'm sorry Heather. I can't express myself very eloquently, as you know, but plainly said: You should know you'd be the most awesome Mom NOW and anytime in the future. I know that! You'll be incredibly sensitive and able to understand and succor many spirits of God in a way no one else can; things will work out. They just will. My husband was worth the wait, your babies will be too. No I don't know how you feel, but God does. He won't let you go a second longer in a trial than is good for you as you've said.
ReplyDeletePlainly said, things will work out.
I love you.
Britt
Yeah, what Brittany said, except not in a sisterly way but more in a dad-of-a-friend kind of a way.
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