We had two beautiful baby boys born in our family on October 4, 2013. Austin Scott Zollinger was the oldest and born at 6:47 pm. Daniel Keith Zollinger followed at 6:53 pm. They were both gorgeous.
Every single thing we have been through in the past 2-3 years was absolutely worth it to hold my little boys, even just for a little while. They were perfect. I could feel how important these children are to our Heavenly Father, what amazing missions they had to fulfill, and how wonderfully strong and faithful they are. I feel so very privileged to be their mother.
We buried them in the Angel Garden at Provo Cemetery. It was a bright morning. The place was dedicated as a place of comfort and peace, but also a place of learning for Greg and I and for all our future children.
It has taken me off guard, but I feel an immense gratitude. I am grateful to know that these are my boys. I will have them again. One day I will raise them. They will be with me my entire life. They will watch over our other children like the big brothers they are. I am grateful I had the amount of time I had with them. I am grateful that Heavenly Father allowed Austin and Daniel to join our family. Never has any blessing of such worth been given to me. Our hearts are full of them. I am a Mom.
The most important thing for anyone to know is that Greg and I have testimonies of the Plan of Salvation and the Atonement of Jesus Christ. Heavenly Father watches over us. Priesthood blessings are real and the words in them are sure. Families can be together forever. Because we know these things, Greg and I don't feel we must focus on anything we might have lost. We focus instead on all the things that we have gained.
When things started to go wrong, Greg and I asked for a miracle. We did receive a miracle, of a whole different kind and caliber. We have had so many personal manifestations that this is what Heavenly Father had planned for our children, that they came to our family for a purpose, and that we will see them again.
This I know the same way I know anything. We love our little boys, and we know everything will be okay.
Please keep us in your prayers just a little longer, and remember also that many families go through this, but don't have the truths we do. They deserve to know, and we must try to help teach them.
Love, Heather and Greg
Love you Heather. I'm so sorry for your loss and we are praying for you and Greg.
ReplyDeleteI'm crying for you again, my dear daughter/friend. How I love you. Keep focused on eternity. It's a long way away, but worth every single second.
ReplyDeleteHeather, I have been watching and reading your story through your blog. Although I have yet to experience such loss as you have this early on in life, my heart aches for you and your sweet family. You have always been a friend I have looked up to, when we were young, and even now though I haven't seen you in a while. I hope you know there are those of us who are praying for you. I hope these prayers will buoy you up in your times of grief and keep you afloat when you feel at a loss. Your faith and testimony emulates through your words: keep it up. You are such a strong woman. Love you Heather!
ReplyDeleteyou have been in our prayers and will continue to be prayed for by our family. Your testimony is bright and teaches me. Much Love!
ReplyDeleteWe pray for you daily and you are in our thoughts. We are grateful for your testimony and we love you very much!
ReplyDeleteYou are such a wonderful example to me. Thank you for being willing to share your experience and testimony so that we can all be strengthen by it. We are praying for you!
ReplyDeleteYour faith and strength continue to amaze me! You are in our thoughts and prayers continually. Know that we love you!! Big Hugs!! <3
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